Friday, February 12, 2021

Life is like a boat


Life is like a boat..

Tiba tiba teringat sebuah soundtrack dari salah satu anime terfavorit "B L E A C H"

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong? We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore? I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea
And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?


Hidup seperti berada di dalam kapal, berlayar menuju laut yang tidak berjejak , dan mempercayakan diri kepada ilahi terhadap apa yang tidak kita ketahui didalam nya laut .

Terkadang ombak besar datang menghampiri terkadang tenang ditemani sinar bintang. Namun sejauh apapun berlayar kita akan merindukan tempat berlatih

When will i can see the shore..uu i can see the shore..
Ada dua malaikat kecil dengan senyuman yang tulus menunggu melepas rindu .. gaun putih melambai menyambut pelukan dua malaikat kecil..tempat ku berlabuh

Mereka menatap wajah ku yang nanar.. malaikat ku bertanya apakah aku baik-baik saja? Aku menjawab ya..aku baik-baik saja tetapi tidak di sini..disini terasa kosong dan hampa

Lalu malaikat kecil ku seakan berkata..jangan khawatir , kami akan selalu mengisi ruang hampa mu..

Jika waktu bisa diputar.. akan aku putar semuanya..tetapi tidak dengan malaikat ini..
Mereka mengisi ruang hampa..

Cinta yang dalam kepada dua malaikat kecil dengan senyumannya yang tulus

Love you Anak-Anak ku

Hampa


Been too long to be alone..
Yes im married but i have no one to share

But the i realized something
If im in my last age.. lonelier than now.. who will take care of me.. will i keep my own life

My husband , he has his own life.. im so lonely

Tadi baca kisah cinta nyata orang lain.. iri banget seumur hidup..ternyata semuanya hampa..
Friday, November 21, 2014

Pain

My head in pain, my armpit was swelling
My stomach gonna blow..my father sick.. And i dont know what to do, he refuse to hospital..

My life completly amazing..

Monday, October 6, 2014

cuma lagi capek

This is not for you Mr. D

But, ada kalanya kamu merasa jenuh dengan segalanya..dah ingin menghilang bersama angin walau hanya sesaat..

Ada kalanya kamu merasa ingin sendirian saja... Dan berteriak tanpa ada yang mendengar..

Aku lagi gak galau..cuma lagi capek
😩


Saturday, October 4, 2014

untitle

Bingung


Ada saat nya kita harus menjatuhkan pilihan..

Memilih pergi atau tinggal..

Tapi ketika rasa itu memudar

Haruskah tetap tinggal

My friend told me that

It isnt wrong for us to choose the best
man

But, for starting the new things so we have to learn everthing from the beggining again

Start to learn a new habbit
A new parent of him, a new people. And that was not an easy things to do

Yep..i realize it so much..
And the man who being with me now..
Already passed it through

But he have several things that i can't make it to accept until now.

And that things haunted me everyday

I just thought..will he change for me?..or will i change for him?

I know this not an easy decision for sure

But i cant do anything

Everytime in my prayer.. I always ask who will be mine?or for whom i will be?

And if this the answer that i got..

Yes, we have must be broke

We just need a little to do anything without each other
Friday, October 3, 2014

kita..mungkinkah berakhir?

Lagu ini mengingatkan aku tentang kamu
Aku selalu menjadi api dan kamu selalu menjadi air
Atau kamu menjadi api..tapi aku tetap api

Gak mungkin merubah aku jadi air mr.d
Aku dengan segala keegoisan dan kekecewaan 

Apa kah kita berhenti?  Km berhenti untuk ku..
Dan aku berhenti menunggu mu?

Atau kita hanya jenuh dengan segalanya 
Can we fix it?

Or we just stop? 

And if this is the way that we have to choose
It means we are start to repair 

Apa mauku apa maumu
Slalu saja menjadi
Satu masalah yang tak kunjung henti
Bukan maksudku bukan maksudmu
Untuk selalu
Meributkan hal yang itu-itu saja
Mengapa kita saling membenci
Awalnya kita slalu memberi
Apakah mungkin hati yang murni
Sudah cukup berarti
Ataukah kita belum mencoba
Memberi waktu pada logika
Jangan seperti selama ini
Hidup bagaikan air dan api
Tuesday, September 30, 2014

semangat ayu

Bu hanifah, dosbing 1 gw baik banget dah.. Selalu sms gw nanya kapan bimbingan lagi..selalu ingetin deadline top bgt bu hanifah.... Pak rifni dosbing 2 gw juga vaik banget..selalu support dan yakin gw busa cepat kelar skripsi..padahal gw nya gak yakin...


Semangat yu..udah bab 4..tinggal dikiiiiiit lagi..... Berkorban jam tidur gpp lah..mata udah beraaaaat..tidur cuma diangkot..haha (maaf lebai)

Trus sekarang ngapain juga gw nyampah disini.. Lanjut lagi yuuu....